Independence Day

I wish we had it. Doesn't feel that way to me often. It feels as though we are jostled side to side by a very few people who have made promises and broken them with numbing regularity until they have broken us. The original Independence Day was supposed to free us from such people, so that we could celebrate this day with the stuff I remember from childhood. Fireflies and big, bad thunderstorms that we who were brave enough would leave the shelter of the kitchen and go out onto the screened-in porch and watch with Dad. I was always half afraid the lightning would travel sideways and set me on fire, but I went out and sat under a trusted arm and learned to love rather than fear the thunder.

In what feels to me like an increasingly graceless world, nostalgia is what links me with people of a similar age in a happier way than that we are both on AARP's inescapable and relentless mailing list. Things like riding out to some secret vantage point in jammies to watch the fireworks. Jammies with feet. Watermelon that had seeds. Running through the sprinkler. Drive-in movies! In jammies with feet. I miss the idea of innocence. I can't find it so much anymore.

I feel for the much younger generation (a SURE sign of imminent old age) that they don't remember some of this stuff. Slip 'N Slides! Those watery vinyl things that cracked so many ribs. People still do all these things in summer, I know. But it was BIGGER then, and not so drowned out by the un-innocent things that accompany childhood these days. I like to remember summers when people held ice cream cones instead of devices.

Sweet memories keep the floor under me sometimes, and I feel lucky to have lived in more innocent times than these. I hope the young can build their future nostalgic moments with real things over machines, with nature over screens, with wonder and occasional awe over cynicism. And I hope for this battered country that we can lose the fear of each other, find the love that is at the core of real freedom, and let the storm pass. Maybe we can stop judging and hating, start listening, reach for understanding, and see with love. I am softening to forgiveness in my own life, and I wish for all of you the same softening wherever it will serve you best. Have a delicious, glorious, innocent, wondrous Independence Day.

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